Here's a poem that I wrote on friendship in September, 2011. It has been almost five years. Today being Friendship Day, it was apt to post this and kick-start my blogging journey. Back then, I had little confidence in my ability to write poems and articles. But my interactions with my friend - Varun motivated me to start and this was my first piece of work.
I think it’s different this time...
I
can see, I can feel, I wish I could believe
It’s
the past that holds me back, those thoughts hold me back
There’s
a deep sense of longing, a deep sense of loss...
Lost
you once, lost you twice
I am
ready to pay any price,
To
ensure there is no thrice
I
think it’s different this time...
First,
I lost him- my mistake;
Next,
I lost her- her mistake
Now,
I hope it is not You...
For,
I have always had a very few...
While
it was Give and only Give in his case,
Take
and only Take in her case,
I
see a balance here, there is both Give and Take
No act is a measured one, everything is so
natural
That
I think it’s different this time...
After
two successive losses, it took me some time;
I
tried hard to stay away from you
Two
whole years... you came into my life so many times
Your
promises were like the words inscribed on stone, I thought
Little
did I know, you were a passing cloud as no rain you brought
None
seemed to last long... Will it be the same with you?
I
hope not.... I think it’s different
this time...
This
time, it’s you who is making the little compromises
I
shall not let them go in vain
For
I know, when I made such (futile) sacrifices
How
difficult it was, to go through the pain
Let
me know when I cross the line
When
I take away something which is not mine
Something
on which I have no right
Please
forgive me... let us not fight
The
world also thinks it’s different this
time...
I
don’t feel bad, I know it’s not a crime
I
care not, of what people say,
It’s
all a part of HIS beautiful play
If
it is in our fate, to part; so be it, yet another time...
Yet,
we shall be connected by thought
And
there shall be no fear of being mocked
Although
the time spent could be short, I know about you, a lot
To
continue to tell my heart, it was different
this time...
At
times, I feel... darkness is better than blurred vision
At
least it lets you have blind faith
The faith-
that starts to fade slowly
When
you desperately try to (fore)see in the dim light
Stop!
Let me put a stop to these thoughts
Why
should I try to connect the dots?
There
is a ray of hope, that this time it is not a dope
I
think it’s different this time...
It’s
as true as GOD’s own word
It’s
as pure as Mother’s love
It’s
as beautiful as the Nature, itself
No
envy, no greed, no negative feeling, whatsoever...
I
THINK it’s different this time
But.....
Every
single time I have thought so...
It
always ended, leaving a scar behind...
However,
I shall cease not, to hope...
As
hope shall translate into reality
The
day will come soon...
When
I shall THINK not, I shall KNOW, for sure, that
It
is indeed different this time...
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